There’s No “Right” Timeframe for Recovery
Men, RecoveryI used to become so depressed that I would hate myself for every little thing I perceived as a flaw. I'd spend hours daily making lists of the things I needed to work on and the things that just weren't right about me. This constant battle in…
“I Felt Like I Had to Be Perfect in Every Way”
Recovery, Special TopicsDespite recent progress, many autistic people’s unique issues around mental health and eating disorders continue to be misunderstood or dismissed outright. As the number of people being identified and diagnosed with autism increases, it is…
Building Strength Out of Struggle
Men, RecoveryI remember being really young when I first became conscious of my unhealthy relationship with body image. It was the classic "being in elementary school" kind of thing; I was bullied for being a little chubby, having to take my shirt off in…
To Be of Substance: A Personal Recovery Call to Action
RecoveryA few years back, I read The Paris Wife, a fictionalized account of Hadley Richardson’s marriage to the famous American author Ernest Hemingway, by Paula McClain. I’ve been in love with Paris ever since visiting that magical city for the…
How Having My Entire Body Painted in San Francisco Helped Me Make Peace with Myself
Body Image, RecoveryIn kindergarten, my mother helped me put together an elaborate project about butterflies. When my turn arrived to present to the class, I cowered behind my teacher, absolutely terrified of the dozens of pairs of eyes on me. This pattern continued…
Bridging the Care Between Eating Disorders and Sexual Violence
Recovery, TraumaSexual violence advocacy is a world of two-sided realities. Survivors often share that they have mixed feelings in the aftermath and healing process. Some examples of these binary realities include:Hating the abuse, but loving the person who…
Embarking on the Long Road to Recovery
Anorexia, RecoveryI grew up in a very athletic family. Every morning, the first thing we did was go for a run and lift weights. After that, we typically took walks and went water skiing. We were always busy working out and being active. Trigger warning:…
My Climb to Binge Eating Disorder Recovery
Binge Eating Disorder, RecoveryI’ve struggled with Binge Eating Disorder (BED) since I was nine years old. Or, at least, that was the first time I remember using food to push away what I was feeling. I would sit in the pantry while my parents fought. The chewing sound drowned…
5 Eating Disorder Recovery Tips for Autistic People
Recovery, Special TopicsWhen I was younger, I knew I was different from other people. I never understood why, and this led me to try to amend myself to “fit in.” I mirrored appropriate reactions and behaviors and ended up trying to “look like” everybody else.…
I’m Fat on the Inside
Body Image, Bulimia, Recovery, Weight StigmaOnce a year, the grocery store checkout magazines come out with their “Half my Size!” issue, featuring people who have dropped a significant amount of weight. They stand in one leg of their old jeans or flex in trendy athletic wear, smiling…